June 29, 2009

I can't believe it has been almost a month since I have written! Oh, how the time does fly. So many more sad things happening. We all had time to contemplate the passing of Farrah Fawcett; to remember her best moments whether on the silver screen or pictured on the wall. She was a fabulous person and she will be missed by so many. And, Ed McMahon! Here's another one who we knew was aging and frail. He will be missed as well... But, Michael Jackson's passing... whew... This one gripped me hard! This is a shocker! He was so young! I grew up listening to his music! I grew up with him. I am only a few years younger than him... He is gone in an instant and MY life flashes before my eyes. OKAY, Yes! It's about me! How can anyone not think it's about them self? What have you done lately? I have yelled at my child for spilling juice on the floor. I have yelled at my oldest for the piles of laundry all over the floor. The dog smells up everything... I am so angry about everything. WHY?! It can all be gone in an instant...

What is so important here? Children living without a father... My child, living without me. The comparison is scary! Life is so fragile. What is the importance of it all? Where is the balance? When I cleaned up the juice, there was balance. When the laundry was folded and put away, there was balance- even peace... The dog still smells; God is wish he could just jump in the shower like the rest of us... He is a good friend in our house and I should not complain. I will go home now and I will kiss my child and embrace my oldest; and I will bathe the dog, too. My heart will still ache a little but I know that I have done a good thing today because I really love my kids and the dog... Have a heart-felt day...