June 29, 2009

I can't believe it has been almost a month since I have written! Oh, how the time does fly. So many more sad things happening. We all had time to contemplate the passing of Farrah Fawcett; to remember her best moments whether on the silver screen or pictured on the wall. She was a fabulous person and she will be missed by so many. And, Ed McMahon! Here's another one who we knew was aging and frail. He will be missed as well... But, Michael Jackson's passing... whew... This one gripped me hard! This is a shocker! He was so young! I grew up listening to his music! I grew up with him. I am only a few years younger than him... He is gone in an instant and MY life flashes before my eyes. OKAY, Yes! It's about me! How can anyone not think it's about them self? What have you done lately? I have yelled at my child for spilling juice on the floor. I have yelled at my oldest for the piles of laundry all over the floor. The dog smells up everything... I am so angry about everything. WHY?! It can all be gone in an instant...

What is so important here? Children living without a father... My child, living without me. The comparison is scary! Life is so fragile. What is the importance of it all? Where is the balance? When I cleaned up the juice, there was balance. When the laundry was folded and put away, there was balance- even peace... The dog still smells; God is wish he could just jump in the shower like the rest of us... He is a good friend in our house and I should not complain. I will go home now and I will kiss my child and embrace my oldest; and I will bathe the dog, too. My heart will still ache a little but I know that I have done a good thing today because I really love my kids and the dog... Have a heart-felt day...

June 03, 2009

It has been so long. I feel as though I have abandoned you... I haven't. I'm just busy, busy, busy. This is what I tell my child, and you anyway. Sometimes life is just so hectic that I don't have time to even think... And is there stuff to think about! The airplane that crashed into the sea. This is so sudden and sad; it makes my heart ache. Truly, the lives lost. The families that mourn. The sorrow that fills the sea of my heart... As we watched this unfold, my child and I, on the news, it broke my heart. My child kept asking questions, thus breaking her heart too. To see someone so little be so upset about the loss of life... Life so far removed from her own... ugh!!! And I am angry. I know that if you are reading this, you too will be angry... Maybe at me. This whole appointing of a judge issue. Talk about being held accountable for every word out of your mouth. I am pro-women. I am a woman and I have opinions! But! How can we just explain away a comment like the one in question? Wasn't some dj/announcer dude fired because of a comment he made about some pretty tough women kickin' butt on a court? Yes, a different court but.... He didn't mean anything MEAN by it. They're just taking it out of context. Really? Did this woman mean to be MEAN about men of a different race? How is a comment of prejudice over looked for one but not for the other? Do we/women really want equality or convenience? "Oh they're just taking it out of context..." Really? I am glad that I am not a high profile blog and that my opinion really doesn't matter, it's just mine after all. Really? Really....!